So this is my first day of unemployment..... Some say it's the first day of the rest of my life. The ability to start afresh, to re-create yourself. Others say it's stupid, naive, and possibly too lazy to understand... I say Bollocks to all of it... I didn't leave my job, to get plaudits, or to become a kind of modern day anti-hero.. (anyone who knows me will say that's not me). I didn't leave because I was naive or lazy either. In all honesty (being honest with yourself, I feel is harder than being honest with others), I left because I just couldn't take it anymore.

I could have waited for the mental breakdown to kick in. I could have hit the hooch & the drugs to get by. I could have killed someone. The problem with those options, was that the latter had started to become all too appealing. Now remember what I mentioned earlier about being honest with yourself. I bet the shirt off my back that everyone at some point has had that brief thought about killing someone. Now that thought may have just been in jest, and moreover laughed off the thought quicker than they thought about it in the first place. Not many people make it to the next stage of that process, and actually start to consider ways, & apparatus in carrying out such an act. For me, I had reached that next level. So thought it best all round and for all those concerned if I left my job via the front door on my own terms instead via the back door in hand cuffs.....