I would like to apologise for my lack of updates recently. It has been 5 days since my last confession...... Not that I'm religious or anything like that, but spilling my mind onto "electronic" paper has in some way started to become a kind of crusade. A spiritual uplift if you will. Due to that feeling, I decided not to carry out any updates over the last couple of days. As from my previous post, It could be argued that I was in some depressed state of mind. Based on the content of it, If I was an outsider looking in, I would have to agree. Just to confirm though, I'm not currently depressed. The one thing I promised myself when I set out on this journey, was that first and foremost I would be Honest. Not just honest to myself, but honest to you - the reader. I was to put down how I was feeling in the moment. At that particular point I was feeling pretty down in myself, and therefore in some form of "self therapy" decided to get those negative feelings out of my mind and onto paper. Personally I believe it to have worked, thus allowing myself that all to important self pick me up, and at the same time, remaining true to my word.

Now quite a lot has happened in this 5 day period, not least the feeling of nervousness, followed by the feeling of sheer joy, then the feeling of sheer dejection and anguish, and finally the feeling of pride. Yes that's right on Sunday I was at the most important football game in the league calender. The Sheffield derby. Sitting in the Kop, can be an enlightening experience. If you catch the moment at exactly the right time, it can provide you with an unlimited feeling of belonging. In the blinking of an eye, people you have never met before suddenly become you family, your equal, your pillar of strength, and your shoulder to cry on. At least we didn't lose. Did we do enough to win the game, I don't think so. Was a 1-1 draw a fair result, pretty much. Now my piggy friends who were at the game will probably completely disagree with me on that point, but then again if they were able to rationalise then they would probably be Wednesdayites anyway.... They looked strong going forward, and our defence always looked shakey, but they never really created any clear cut chances to deserve a victory. So bragging rights were split on this "day of days". But don't dispare my little piggy friends. It looks like you may get the last laugh after all....

Hopefully speak to you all tomorrow....... The Big Dog......