What to do, what to do, what to do..... Spare time can only ever become over-rated when you have so much of it on your hands. It gives you time to reflect, to consider the most important things in your life. It also (as said previously) sends your mind into over drive. The problem with with this is that, due to not having anything else to do, you end up dwelling on those thoughts. Thoughts that normally would probably come and go throughout the course of the day, end up getting stuck, and if your not careful can send you over the edge..
To give you an example of how things can get, here are just a few words that kind of describe how I feel from one minute to the next.
I'm just a shadow of the man I used to be. To many bitter tears are raining down on me. I'm far away from home, and I've been facing this alone for much too long. I feel that no-one ever told the truth to me, or explained how much of a struggle life would be. In my tangled state of mind, I've been looking back to find where I went wrong.
Here I am , born to be king, I'm the Prince of the universe. Here I belong, fighting to survive, in a world with the darkest powers. Here I belong fighting for survival, I've come to be the ruler of your world. I am immortal, I have inside me blood of kings. I have no rival, no one can be my equal. I am the future of your world. You'll never understand, my power is in my own hand. I'm a man that will go far, pass the moon and reach for the stars, I'll hold my head high, gonna pass the test first time. People talk about me, I hear it every day, but I'm gonna prove them wrong cos I'm right first time.......
I have plagiarised some lines there, and i'll not deny it. Just wanted to give an insight into the mind of a bi-polar wannabe...... Sometimes I don't know whether to laugh or cry.....
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